Gentle Magnetic Energy
I have memories from when I was a young child that I felt deeply connected to something vast. I spent many hours of my young life simply pondering and asking questions of myself, of the universe, and of anyone who'd be willing to listen to me. I didn't grow up in a religious or spiritual home. I just always felt connected to something "out there" that was calling me, like a gentle magnetic energy wanting me to know but was held back by the experiences I was meant to move through to teach me lessons in this life. I was open. I was listening. I was hopeful.
Even though I had some control over the sails of my ship, as a novice I could do only so much as the wind took me on paths that would teach me what I had to learn. I had to grow into the love and wisdom my heart and soul were seeking. I had to grow into it through trial and error, failure and success, harm and healing.
Half a century later, I'm still learning and still growing. And my memories of when I was that innocent, questioning child are teaching me things even now. That gentle magnetic Energy wasn't "out there" but "in here," and it continues to beckon me. But now I am not looking outward, as if it is just beyond my reach which only my striving can attain. I am looking inward, as it has never left me and never will; indeed, it is a part of me and I am a part of it, as we all are. It is something I was never without and never will be without; it is something you were never without and never will be without.
September 10, 2019
(Featured artwork by Suzy Hazelwood)